Live every moment...Take every breath

A sweet face I will never forget....one of my long time friend, companion, and confidant.

My beautiful doggie passed away this last week....i received a phone call from my mother.

mama: "sissy....you there?"
me: "yes mama"
She had the tone I knew, the tone that goes without any explanation....so I reply with tears in my eyes...ready to cry at the news I'm about to hear.

I remember the day we went to pick her up....a sweet brown puppy laying in the front yard of a house underneath a white plastic chair, finding any shade from the beating sun of the summer. As my family approaches she perks up her little puppy ears and starts to crawl towards her curiosity. Picking her up she sat in the backseat with me on the way home, laying on my lap her whiskers tickled my legs. I remember giggling the whole way home, finding it quite funny, but now wanting to move her one inch.

She got used to our house, her puppy sister, and our backyard. Maple, named after her search to eat tiny spouts of what would have been baby maple trees....

This dog wasn't just a dog, not just a friend....one of my best friends. She would come into my room with nothing but perfect timing. She was the dog that was there when I was crying, the dog that was there when i didn't feel so good. Her sister Libby was the healer, but she was the friend. She died knowing so many of my secrets, whispered into her little ear....as she answered with kisses, cuddles, and love, the world seemed to be just a little easier.

She had an amazing life. One full of love, happiness, treats, and billions of kisses on the top of her sweet head. She was ready....it was time. That little puppy was 12-13 years old...she has suffered her share of strokes, episodes, and pain.

I saw her last when I went home for spring break. She came to me and pawed at me, the first time in over a year, so I took time and laid with her....i remember crying and looking into her clouded eyes....and whispered one more secret...
"May..my sweet sweet May, I love you. I would have had my childhood no other way, you never told any of my secrets, so I'm going to tell you one more. May....let go. Please please let go. You deserve to be pain free....I will never forget you."

And we fell asleep next to each other. I know I didn't say goodbye, but it was the best ending I could have asked for. I love you my little Maple Tree....

Love
Small Girl